I was probably around 20 when I saw him for the first time. At first, I thought it would be just another concert – like any other. But oh, how wrong I was.
After the concert, I still remember the sore throat, the exhaustion, the echo in my head. Now, I often feel that way after a show – but back then, it was something else. Maybe it was the first time I felt something that strong.
The Magic That Kept Returning
And that feeling… it came back every time I saw him. How I loved watching him. His movements were monotonous, almost mechanical – but that’s what made it so special. It was Ozzy Osbourne, exactly as he was meant to be.
My god, I loved going to those concerts. That real feeling – the one that rooted deep inside – was always there.
Before the Legends Became Legends
I think I’ve seen most of the big heavy metal bands. I was even at a show where Helloween opened for one of the greats.
And I saw The Rev – alive – on stage at Ullevi. He played with Avenged Sevenfold, opening for Iron Maiden.
Back then, I didn’t like the band. They didn’t resonate with me – probably because I was just waiting for Iron Maiden. But after The Rev died… I found my way to their music. And suddenly, I heard the beauty. The depth that had always been there.
What Hits Hardest
There’s something that happens when you find something too late. When you suddenly understand what you missed while it was right in front of you.
The Tribute That’s Happening Now
All the love pouring in on social media. How the world is lifting up The King of Darkness – Ozzy Osbourne.
I wasn’t at the 2025 concert in Birmingham. I had already decided to keep the memory of him as he was back then.
But now… now I see how wrong I was. I should have listened to my son, who told me to go. But I said no. “I’ve seen him young – I want to keep that image.” Oh, how I wish I had been there. To share that moment. To honor him – this enormous icon – as he said goodbye.
My ADHD Heart and What I Really Wanted to Say
And yet, this wasn’t what I meant to write either. My ADHD brain swims through words that don’t always line up the way they should.
But what I truly wanted to say is this: I’m so moved – deeply moved – to see all the love for Ozzy and his band, Black Sabbath.
It’s beautiful. Those who were there. Those who shared. Those who now carry his legacy forward.
He Still Owns the Stage – Even Sitting
But the greatest thing of all? Seeing how – despite all the pain his body carries – he can still captivate an entire arena. He’s sitting. But he creates magic just by being there.
He doesn’t move like he used to. He’s not standing tall. And yet… every clip I’ve seen carries that same feeling I once had in front of the stage.
It must be his aura. His voice. His power within.
The Presence Was Always the Power
I used to think it was his movement and voice that made him great. But now I understand: It was never just that.
It was him. His presence. His being. The legend.
This Man – and His Life
I truly love this man – everything he’s done in his life. I read his book a few years ago, and I can honestly say: It’s worth it. My god, what a life. That he’s still alive today… it’s almost unbelievable.
What Matters Most
I strayed again. But now I return to what I wanted to say:
I’m so deeply touched – so full of love – that he gets to experience all this now, while he’s alive. He gets to hear the words that usually come too late. The ones we say after someone is gone.
And that… That feels incredibly important. More than anything, maybe.
But even then – do we ever truly hear those words? I’m not sure we do.
Celebrate While We Still Can
Because no matter how much we praise someone after they’re gone – It’s while they live that they need to hear it.
Famous or unknown. Big or small.
We all have something to learn from that.
Reflection
We so often wait too long. Our words land in silence, when they can no longer be received.
But Ozzy – he gets to hear them now. And that’s something we all deserve. Whether we’re on stage, or sitting in the crowd.
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Live and act today. What you did yesterday is history. The future? We know nothing about it. And if we wait… it might be too late. But we won’t know that until tomorrow – if we’re lucky enough to see it. – Carina Ikonen Nilsson.
Writing is my way of breathing. And today, I breathe gratitude – for the night, the morning, and the journey we’ve been on. Here are a few words from our moment in Vilhelmina, before we begin our way home again.
Gratitude as a Way of Life
A new day to live. A new day to breathe. I often feel gratitude just for waking up – simply opening my eyes and starting over is something I no longer take for granted. The more years that pass, the more I live in thoughts of thankfulness. It’s as if growing older peels away the noise and makes space for what truly matters.
Morning in Vilhelmina – Fully Charged
Today, I live inside my gratitudes. Grateful for a good night’s sleep. Grateful that we arrived here in Vilhelmina. And grateful that we begin our journey home today.
I don’t know how far we’ll go – maybe all the way to Mora, or perhaps we’ll stop in Östersund for the night. There are many miles to travel, but we’ll take them at our own pace.
All the Miles Behind Us
What a journey we’ve had! So many experiences, so many miles – and most of all: so much we’ve shared. Me, my husband, and the little one. Yesterday, when we arrived here, it was time to recharge – both body and devices. Vacuum cleaner, toothbrush, laptops – everything needed a boost before the new day.
We mostly camp to enjoy a warm shower and recharge everything. Others at the campgrounds sit outside, socialize, grill, and enjoy the camping life. We do the other things – prepare food, shower, tidy up for the night. Then we curl up with our phones or computers for a little while, before sleep takes us. I don’t think we’ve stayed up late even once. All those miles and moments make us tired by nightfall.
A Tiredness You Feel in Your Bones
Last night, I was writing a blog post, yawning through every sentence. Tears streamed down my cheeks from all the yawning. And the moment my head hit the pillow, I was gone.
Långfil – A Northern Breakfast Love
At our stop in Blåsjön, I found something I’d been longing for – långfil!
Långfil is a traditional northern Swedish fermented milk product – thicker than regular yogurt and with a soft, tangy taste. It forms long, silky threads when stirred – hence the name. For many, it’s a childhood favorite and a true symbol of northern Swedish breakfast culture. Sometimes, you can sprinkle a little cinnamon, ginger, or sugar on top – and it becomes pure delight.
So today, I’m treating myself to a proper northern breakfast with långfil. And a quiet smile – because this morning feels exactly as it should.
Stekenjokk – A Mountain Landscape to Carry with You
During our journey, we passed Stekenjokk, a place you can’t describe without pausing to take a deeper breath.
Stekenjokk is one of Sweden’s highest roads, stretching across a mountain plateau in the borderlands between Jämtland and Lapland. The landscape opens like a skyward roof. Rugged mountains, melting snow streams, and patches of snow that linger well into summer. The nature here is powerful – wild and wind-worn, yet calming.
For the little one, it was the snow in June that stood out. For us, it was the silence, the vastness, and the feeling of being just a tiny dot in something so much greater.
A Journey for the Memory Bank
The little one may have spent a lot of time with his phone or laptop, but he still got to experience the landscapes of Norway and northern Sweden. Now he can say “I’ve been there” – and truly know what it looks like. He knows now how quickly the weather changes here – from sun to storm in a snap.
He can say, “Yes, I remember – the wind up there really can blow!” And we’ve felt that – not once, but twice. Winds so strong you could barely walk forward. A force you have to both respect and remember.
Heading Home – With a Heart Full
Now we’re packing up, charging the last devices, and slowly heading home. A journey is never just roads and rest stops – it’s memories, emotions, and lessons. And I’m truly grateful for every step.
Writing Time Among Fjäll and Fil
Something else I’ve carried with me on this trip is words. I’ve had time to write – and more importantly, time to listen. To my own thoughts. To the wind in the mountains. To the silence.
It was here, during this journey, that a new title for a future story arrived. It’s still just a seed. But The Winged Horse – that tale is growing.
Right now, I’m actively working on writing the full story of The Winged Horse, Alfred, and Tom. It’s a tale that has grown slowly over time – piece by piece, image by image – and now it’s taking shape as a real book. A book I plan to publish when it’s ready.
The illustrations are created with help from AI, but the story, the voice, the emotion – that’s all mine. It’s my story – born in a camper van, carried by forest stillness, silence, and imagination. And maybe the mountain winds have whispered a few extra lines along the way.
Would you like to follow the journey as I work on the book? You can read more here on my blog, under the tag The Winged Horse.
Would you like to get a message when the book is ready? Feel free to leave a comment or send me an email – I’d love that.
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Live well. And don’t forget to breathe. /Carina – malix.se
Carina Ikonen Nilsson Lev idag, just nu. Igår finns inte längre här och morgondagen kommer först i morgon. Just nu är det som gäller.
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