– when the text whispers and resistance reveals itself
Coming closer to yourself is not always about doing more, understanding more, or finding better words. Sometimes it is about daring to stay with what you feel – even when it is uncomfortable. This morning became one of those moments for me.
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An ordinary morning.
I am sitting here with my laptop, simply being.
A few days ago, a feeling arose in me – one that actually became quite strong.
It appeared after I had recorded myself reading a blog post and then sat down to listen to the text. The recording was good enough, I thought.
But as I listened, a question quietly crept in:
Is this really what I mean with this text?
I paused for a moment and first thought: no, this is not what I mean. This is another text.
At the same time, something struck me – wait. What you are doing right now is leaving the first feeling and trying to rewrite it.
And feelings that come first often want to tell us something.
They stand for something important. Something true.
But perhaps that is also where I become afraid – afraid to fully feel them.
Maybe it is now, after all these years of writing, that I am finally beginning to understand what I truly want to say.
In that moment, many feelings lived inside me.
It was slightly uncomfortable, and at the same time it felt as if something was whispering from within:
Dare to think the thought.
Dare to feel the feeling.
I listened to the text once more and said to myself:
This is true. This is whispering to you. Not to another version of you, and not to anyone else.
You have created a course.
You want to teach others how to find their way back to themselves.
And here you are – not quite daring to see yourself fully.
What kind of honesty is that?
Now it is time to roll up your sleeves and actually do the work.
For real.
I let the text remain as it was.
And I realized that the course I created for others also has something to teach me – even though I thought I was already done.
Maybe that is exactly why a course about coming closer to yourself is never finished.
You are never done.
But each time you return to the material,
each time you dare to stay a little longer in the feeling,
you come closer to yourself.
Coming closer to yourself – an inner movement
Often it is the inner voice, which at first feels only like a whisper, that awakens something. Something that slowly begins to take shape, settles into a thought, and eventually becomes something larger.
AHA – coming closer to yourself between the lines
This is not a text about writing.
It is a text about resistance.
About the moment when something true reveals itself – and the impulse to immediately rewrite, soften, explain, or shift focus.
Between the lines lies the insight that what stops us is often not a lack of words, but the fear of staying with the feeling the words point toward.
That is where change begins. Not when the text becomes better, but when we stop running from what it awakens.
Between the lines – my voice
I hear a person who no longer settles for understanding herself only intellectually.
Who realizes that she has taught others how to find their way home, but does not always dare to remain fully in her own inner room.
This is the courage to admit:
I am not finished. And that is precisely why I am true.
Reflection – coming closer to yourself
Listening to your own text is meeting yourself without protection.
Not as a writer, not as a guide, not as someone who has it all figured out – but as a human being.
Perhaps that is where healing begins.
Not when we find the right wording, but when we stop correcting the first feeling and allow it to remain.
Reflection on the reflection
This post shows something important:
When we dare to see our own hesitation, our fear, our longing, what we offer others also becomes more credible.
A course, a text, a conversation that does not begin from the idea that we are finished,
but from the fact that we are still listening.
Questions for you as a reader
When was the last time you wanted to rewrite something, even though it was true just as it was?
What happens within you when you stay with the first feeling, without correcting it?
Is there something in your life right now that is whispering, but that you have not yet dared to fully listen to?
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