This post comes a little later today.
Not because the words were missing – but because the day began in the water. Swimming and presence came first. And perhaps that is why both my body and my blog feel so in tune right now.
Read this post in Swedish ->Simning och närvaro – när hänsyn blir tröttande
It was an early visit to the swimming pool.
I’ve now bought a six-month pass – the budget version, valid before 3 p.m. It actually suits me well. Less pace, less noise. Now I just need to figure out which times are least crowded, so that swimming can be what it is meant to be: recovery, not social adjustment.
Same lane – different rhythms
At first, I shared a lane with a man who swam faster than I did.
I noticed how I immediately became stressed. Not by his speed – but by the fear of disturbing his rhythm. I started adjusting my turns, my breathing, my pauses.
Then a woman joined who swam more slowly than I did.
And then it shifted. Now I was the one behind. I became so aware that I might be stressing her that I sometimes had to float for a moment, slow down, create distance.
It struck me how affected I am by others, even though I am there for myself.
When consideration becomes tiring
I am a considerate person.
And I like that side of me.
But sometimes it goes a little too far.
What also became clear was that none of the others seemed to take the same consideration toward me. They swam their swim. Took their space. Kept their rhythm. As they should.
And there I was, in the middle of the pool, with half my attention directed outward.
It is tiring.
Not dramatic.
Just… energy-draining.
Swimming and presence – the same rhythm in body and everyday life
When I came home, my body was soft, a little tired in that gentle way.
And the blog had to wait.
But meanwhile, something continued to carry.
I see that what is being read on my blog right now are texts about presence, the body, everyday life, ADHD, and recovery. Reflections rather than advice. Words that don’t want anything from the reader – except to keep them company for a while.
It is the same theme as in the pool.
Finding one’s rhythm.
Being allowed to take up space without disturbing – and without shrinking.
That the texts find their way, even when I choose the water first, tells me something I appreciate:
The blog stands steadily now. It doesn’t need to be chased. It is allowed to live at the same pace as I do.
For me, swimming and presence belong together – in the pool, in the body, and in the writing.
AHA – between the lines
I notice how easily I take responsibility for the atmosphere around me.
How quickly my presence becomes alert instead of resting.
The aha-moment is not that I am “too kind.”
It is that I sometimes forget that I, too, am someone to take into consideration.
In the pool, in everyday life – and in life itself.
Swimming and presence have become my way of listening inward, without explaining or performing.
Reflection – presence in the body through swimming
Perhaps the next step is not about becoming less considerate.
But about daring to take my place a little more clearly.
To swim at my pace.
To write at my rhythm.
And to let that be enough.
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Carina Ikonen Nilsson
Live today, right now.
Yesterday rests in history, and tomorrow waits somewhere ahead.
But right now – this is where life happens.
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